Yesterday I became unofficially an official adult. I say official, because at 18 years old, I am considered an adult in the eyes of the government, and I can get my full license, the one that is printed horizontally instead of the tall way. It's unofficial, because there is plenty I have to learn before I can become the type of adult capable of living on my own or being what is considered a grown-up. I still feel like a child. A child with increasing responsibilities, but a child nonetheless. And I really wouldn't want it any other way.
When my mom died, I felt that I had to grow up much faster than I would have otherwise. I was on my own, or more so with her absence. There was no one to hide behind when someone I didn't know approached me. I had to start acting for myself. That initial realization startled me; I didn't want to be on my own. But I quickly grew into the part. My self awareness and spiritual intelligence has even caused some people I work with to believe that, when I tell them I'm a senior, they assume college. That's another thing: work. It's almost expected that by the age of 16, teenagers have or are searching for jobs. It's become the regularity of our time. It's true, students are way overburdened when compared to the way people have lived just 10 years ago. But why the change? Perhaps it's because being an expert in one thing is no longer exceptable or understandable. Businessmen want the Renaissance men, the ones who can do it all and adapt quickly. Picking on kids for being studious and working hard isn't really the norm in this day and age, at least not in my high school. Things change, as they always do.
Change is never something to worry about. It's not something we control. The only thing we can control is how we feel about it. It's more fun to ride the roller coaster if we accept the big drop coming up ahead, rather than try to push against it and make the car stop with our minds (this coming from a person who hates to ride roller coasters, ironically). It's the same premise as letting go of the oars when paddling upstream. There are times when the best way to be happy is to just let go.
I've been taking an Eastern Faiths class in school, and I find it a lot of fun. Hinduism and Buddhism are both religions that I seem to agree a lot with. It corresponds to the teachings of Abraham-Hicks, except for the gods and the karma. It's a cool belief system. Everything that I have encountered in my life experience thus far has led me to realize that I can never be alone. I live in a world full of love, full of appreciation, and full of acceptance. There is nothing that cannot be achieved. Being one year older certainly makes it seem that way. I have so many options at my fingertips, I don't even have to choose definitively. Things will always open, and we will never get it done.
